6.29.20

So today I deleted majority of my discography from almost all the websites it was previously on. The reasoning is for a new change in musical direction. I am still going to release music under Kurt Rock. I am also still going to make a lot of music under Shadows of the Night. But with either. I ran into a boatload of issues Which is copyright, personal, and creative. My first mixtape was almost exclusively copyrighted. My first “EP” never got finished in the way I wanted to. Major issues with featuring so I already had to take that down. Then on top of that some people in my family didn’t like the lyrical content and intention I made in the songs. Also I was going through a really though time around the ages of 11-15. And from 13-15 is when I was making most of what was released. On top of all that I was loaded with a shit ton of copyright issues. The main producer who “GAVE” me beats under CREATIVE COMMONS license. Turned around and copyrighted all of his instrumentals. So that made a huge issue. When it comes to the past releases. I was very inferior when it came to the quality of music. I had all the ambition in the world but it seemed like my only escape in life was through music when I was in the most depressed and suicidal part of my life. I ended up getting far better then I ever had been with multiple issues with life and the music itself. With all the newer music I made. Some lyrical content I definitely want to change and for sure the production needs to be improved. Vocally I thought I was pure shit. And everything was mixed like dog shit. I got a good amount of attention for Kurt Rock locally, online, and in bizarre places in the world. But mainly online. It’s sad because I have a ridiculous amount of Instagram followers with loosing close to 20k because I don’t have really any content to show for it. I’m in a lot better place mentally and creatively. Last year I was going to make big changes when it came to music but life once again hit me like a ton of bricks. I just graduated high school and my motivation to do anything was very slim after I quit my job at Taco Bell. My senior year was rough for me personally. Around the end of the year more blocks came up and halted me even thinking about anything creatively for a bit. Ideas were put into place here and there but I didn’t think I was going anywhere. Then around March I get into a minor car accident and started a prescription to zoloft and trazodone. Zoloft for me personally might be one of the worst thing I’ve ever put into my body. It works for many people but it was almost a poison to me. I dealt with the normal SSRI side effects coming onto the medication and after a month I thought it was working until I noticed I’m severely unmotivated, defiantly wasn’t happy with life. I felt like I didn’t have a soul. I was just a partially functioning robot. With the big increase of serotonin I was so irritable and uncomfortable inside and everything but then physically happy because I’m boosted with a large amount of serotonin. As soon as I could I got off of it cold turkey. Went through a month of withdrawals and I felt better then on the medication. Then a few months after all that cooled down I started getting back into music and focusing on it like I should’ve before. Trailer Park I’m probably going to redo and put out as an EP as a truly finalized version that tries to stay close to the energy I had at that time. To be honestly majority of it will likely be scrapped including my entire first mixtape. For shadows of the night I will re do the first mixtape and release it everywhere. As well as likely scrapping the PoliticalTape mixtape or keeping mainly the instrumentals and just releasing that. Me and some friends are in the works of a few metal bands that we will try our hardest to get music out there and tour whenever we get the financial resources and all this covid shit blows over. The biggest reason for barely releasing any music in the past few years was the fact I’m sitting on multiple projects I either felt too insecure to release or that they had a lot of work to be done. So my plan is by the end of the year to get Atleast 3-4 projects released from Kurt Rock, Shadows of the Night, and a few other bands. Hopefully anyone who was a fan prior will stick around and who ever don’t fuck em. And I’ll work hard to get a passionate fan base making the music the way I want to. As creatively as I can. Staying true to myself. Deleting my whole discography online helps me staying away from the past and focusing on the present. I know this is a very long post but thank you for those who read it. And I really appreciate all those who have read til the end.

I deleted my whole discography of music and here is why